Life goes fine since the surgery. Hasil Patologi 2 minggu setelah operasi itu benar kalo si tumor yang kemaren diambil adalah Fibro Adenoma Mammae. Everything was good, dokter sampe bilang gue gak perlu lagi bolak balik ke rumah sakit. but yeah, gue tetep harus jaga makan. pengen banget olahraga sebenernya, disamping badan gue jadi gampang loyo gini, gue kangen berenang banget. sayangnya berenang perlu otot dada dan tangan yang fully works. dan otot dada gue belom bisa dibikin capek. ngangkat tas aja gaboleh disebelah kiri. above all, i'm totally great.
skripsi lancar jaya in this 3 weeks. minggu ini udah bisa ambil surat acc, kalo bisa sekalian daftar ke sejur untuk sidang. Wisuda Desember, i'm coming! kudu!
the thing why i want to write here again, i just randomly remembered how fast the time goes by in this 4 years. Dian, my genius friend on highschool got married. i'm indescribably happy for her, and he got a great husband thou :) Chika passed her undergraduate thesis. I'm going to go for it too. Nabila now is in Istanbul, Turkey for her Magister. She took political history something there for her major. soooo happy for her!
satu persatu temen-temen gue udah meniti impiannya. pun gue. hashtag #Wisuda2014 ini udah mulai kelihatan ujungnya, udah mulai kelihatan wujudnya. i still have to chase my dream to get my Magister in Germany or Aussie, a car (i'm dying for this), and have a sufficient life. is it too much, God? i thought its not. so grant this please... :')
one thing again, my short term dream. i want to see Ka Lia smiling. not feeling all the pain caused by the cancer on her body. she have been passed everything so well, God. just please let her see Starla grows intelligently. i love her, even she's not my literally siblings, she's just an angel.
Ka Lia masuk rumah sakit lagi beberapa kali in past 3 weeks. HB nya sempet 4, leukositnya 1 (i dont know how she passed this! she's just so brave!), sesak nafas, beberapa kali kemo. kemarin gue jenguk, Ka Lia masuk UGD karena sesek nafas dan mati rasa dari perut sampe kaki. gak ada rasanya sedikitpun katanya. kanker itu udah menyebar sampai tulang belakang. i even cant write it in a word. i just beg more time for her to God :""
egois, gue pengen banget balik ke 2-3 tahun lalu. waktu semua masih ada disekeliling gue, masih bisa ketawa sama-sama tanpa ada jarak dan situasi yang berarti untuk misahin sesuatu.
*deep breath*
anyone can give me jokes, please? so i can forget all the pain that ruin in my head, and laughing? :')
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